Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

How to go about breaking my ls leader's heart? Hrm hrm. :-(

See, the problem is, I am 100% unmotivated to play FFXI. Number of darns given, approximately zero! It used to be a lot of fun, I used to enjoy it. For the past couple months I've only been un-afk'ing for events and such. I figured when Seekers came out, it would rev me up and get me all excited to play again! Maybe I'd even finish that Almace I started!

Yeah, no. Seekers came out, I was still bored, and still unmotivated, and even worse, I kinda felt like that any effort I put into this update would be overshadowed in the next one. At 75 cap, you could spend trucktons of gil and time getting a relic or a mythic, and later it was overshadowed by emps. Then you could spend some time getting emps, but it's overshadowed as soon as the next big update comes out by delve weapons. And if I bother to go get a delve weapon, the very next big update is going to overshadow that. It kinda feels like there's just no point, no definitive end-goal to work towards.

I mean, if I wanted to play, wanted to go get a delve weapon or whatnot, it would be fine, that WOULD be the point, to go have fun. But it feels more like a chore to go do this stuff, a dreary, necessary chore, and it will be all for naught in the next update (or when I stop playing because, honestly, that's a lot of time spent on a game that could be spent on other things. You know, like other games. xD)

I want a break. A huge, long break, in which no one calls my phone to see if I can lead this event or tell someone that so-and-so will be late. A break where I don't feel obligated in any way to log on at all.

It's like coming home from working all day in real life and going to work all night in-game. I don't wanna!

But how to tell people who depend on me that I'm out? If it's not a permanent out, then they'll be mad when I don't log back in next week. If it is a permanent out, they will be mad that I don't come back ever. If the ls was big or had a lot of folks in it, it wouldn't be so bad. But there's a small nucleus of 5-6 players who are dependable for every event, and my husband and I are two of them. D:

What do.

Edit: Oops page!

"It's a game. I don't feel like playing it anymore. Peace!"

No need to make it a drama!

Just say exactly what you said there. No helping it, you're tired of it. You want a break. No one is going to be mad at you.

link them this

Up to you; there'll still be plenty more to donate to after it either way. :I

So I got some new flavored water stuff today, after drinking like 3 quarts of the stuff tonight I noticed on the label that this is caffeinated stuff. Guess I am not sleeping tonight!

"*** ya'll, I'm going to World of Warcraft!"

Uldaman!

Is that Julie?

Aubrey Plaza, so... I dunno.

Yeah Julie from Scott Pilgrim. <3 So hot.

Caffeinated water? <________<

It's 10pm, I'm riled up and not sleepy and full of stories and random thoughts. You guys want a dog story? xD

It's like Crystal Light drink mix for flavoring your water. And staying up all night. I think I should move some furniture around.

Liela needs a drink or tea or a nice glass of wine~

relax

I hate what the did with Sherlock Holmes in the movies. I don't know why I'm watching it.

That is beautiful! <3

Sleepy or not, I better get to bed. Must go to work in the morning whether I get enough rest or not! Gnight guys. ^^

goodnight~ :P

You need a reason to watch Robert Downey Jr? Lolno!

He plays a pompous *** in all his movies. No thanks!

I'm guilty of watching movies because they have specific actors in them. That's why I kinda want to watch that R.I.P.D. thing or whatever it's called.

bed time.

goodnight~ RT

Gniteeeeeeeeeeeeeee bob

I wish I didnt suck so bad at that game, people seem to have a lot of fun playing it.

It's really only fun if you make it fun. The community will bring you down over and over if you actually let it.

neat :I

Unfortunately yes, time is running out for me as well.