By Odin.Liela 2012-01-09 11:27:20
Oh Slip. So sorry about your grandpa. :-(
This was my first Christmas with neither of my grandparents living. I hadn't spoken to my grandparents in years, not for lack of loving them but because they could not speak on the phone (deaf) and had a touch of Alzheimer's and didn't remember me when I wrote. After years without them, I didn't think it would hurt me when they were gone. But there are days when you just suddenly think "damn, I wish I could hear Grandpa tell that one ridiculous story again" or "I really miss the way Grandma made this meal" or you walk by someone in a store or on the sidewalk that smells like them and it just hits you like a brick in the eye that they are gone and you can never get them back.
I'm sorry for your loss. Even if you don't feel it yet, someday you will.