By Valefor.Endoq 2018-08-06 04:45:48
Found out somebody went and made a label for whatever it is I am... I always just thought I must be asexual or something because I had never experienced sexual attraction, but after meeting someone who I thought was like me and after a long time bonding and building trust and being led on to believe we were on the same page. I, with a willful decision, did the most terrifying thing in my life, I decided to open my heart to love in its fullest, leaving myself the most vulnerable I have ever been ... soon after this I experienced something I had never known in my 36 years on this earth... I experienced this attraction for the first time ever, my body responded in ways I never knew. All the these flaws became pure beauty in my eyes. All these things i normally found repulsive, became attractive... but it turned out I had been lied to and I’m once again alone and without any kind of sexual attraction to anyone... but at least now I know... I guess, I guess it was worth the journey... even if it was unrequited in the end.