Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

My dad's health took a turn for the worse, and my mom is now taking action to have papers formalizing her with Power of Attorney over his affairs.

He was originally slated 2-4 months at the worst, 4-8 months at best, but I received a phone from my mom this morning saying he was found in his room unconscious and not breathing. The staff had to work about 5 min or so to get him breathing again, but are not sure how long he went without oxygen to the brain, and is currently on life support.

he developed additional infections including blood and lung infections sometime after his first chemo session, and further aggravated his already aggressive leukemia. What I was given to believe, is that he could go at any moment, and that it would be my mom's decision to pull the plug - not that she can afford to keep him on life support - mentally, emotionally, or financially, as it would severely impact her own health, and ability to work.

Damn, man. I dunno what to say. ><

My dad's in a vegetative state - essentially brain dead. So the paperwork my mom is filing is basically granting the Power and protection that comes with pulling the plug.

I've posted my feelings on what I think of the *** ***kicker, and even though I wouldn't wish this kind of thing on anybody, all I can do is feel indifferent about the old geezer, while my heart aches for my mom, and the suffering she's going through, considering all the people she cared about who died under circumstances as devastating as this.

Her father died of Alzheimer's, one of her brother's died to aids/HIV, I'm not sure which, her mother died of food poisoning coupled with kidney failure, one of her other brothers, died of colon cancer after having part of his colon removed, her brother in law died of a heart attack/heart disease, and so on. All long term suffering effects, but I think the most brutal was watching her father suffer from Alzheimer's, and forgetting who she was.

SO while I would also like to go out like a boss in my own way, that power is forever out of my father's hands. He hasn't the got the cognitive motor skills left to do so, much less the strength. He's been put into a medically induced coma for the foreseeable future, until the time comes.

He's been a grade A *** to everyone around him his entire life. Family, friends, he made a lifetime legacy of alienating everyone around him. Granted his age, I still don't think that Chemo was the best option, particularly before his first therapy session he was doing transfusions to clear up a blood infection - which came back stronger than ever because he had a white blood cell deficiency after the treatment. However, he made the call upon a medical specialist's recommendation to accept it while he was still of sound mind.

The horrible feeling I have right now, is because I feel pretty indifferent towards him, even considering the circumstances. It would honestly make me feel better if I could hate him, love him, or something in between.

Just got the call from my mom, the plug is being pulled in about 5 hours from now, at around noon.

She has to also talk to several social services about getting the money needed to have his remains cremated, and for funeral services, which have yet to be planned.

Apparently the dumb *** didn't bother to make a will, plans, or keep enough money in his savings or retirement for this and has essentially placed the burden on my mother to find a way to pay for it all.

I just saw a hawk swoop down and snatch up a frog, it was kinda cool but dropped it a few seconds later and never returned.

I'm thinking I want a corgis

Omg guys! I can't believe it! The iPhone X has NO HOME BUTTON!!

I can't believe it! Such innovation is- it's mind blowing!

I'm calling it:
iPhone 12 No camera! So brave!

Meanwhile at samsung

It's like the new the Apple TV with 4K etc...meanwhile at amazon and roku.

The old guy came off life support at noon, passed away at 1:03pm.

I can't be the only person who sees this and finds it a troublesome concept.

Whatever it means from an internet acquaintance, you have my condolences.