Sorry, I'm kinda just playing Skyrim, doing random, odd things to grab my attention. I suppose I should actually try to get sleep soon.
Yeah, she was a black lab, I named her Argus which no one in my family could remember. (She'd been called Asparagus, Aleve, etc.) It may seem silly, but she was kinda like a child to me. April 15th, my niece found her abandoned and brought her over and that was it, I was attached. I wanted to give her a better life than the one the druggies who abandoned her damned her to. I did my best with what I had and while the life was extremely short, I'd like to think I gave her a better shot than she had. I used to let her play outside during the day and she slept at my feet every night. She was my baby and I already miss her but I'd rather it ended the way it did than one of the various worse ways it could've. I sat by her side and watched as her eyes dimmed and after a few gasps she was at peace and her suffering was over. I buried her under my pecan tree in the shirt I was wearing just so she had something of mine with her, maybe my scent. I don't know.
I forsee Comfortably Numb on loop in my near future.
Aw; /comfort It's ok Anna, I had my favorite dog put down right after my birthday because he attacked my other dog >< He was always a victim and the 1 time he lashed out we knew we wouldn't be able to control it and had to do something... What makes it worse is since then I've clung to my cat, but he has kidney failure and will be gone in less than 6 months (hes been showing signs of kidney failure for months) and our other dog only has up to a year left.
Losing anmials is really hard especially when you grow a bond with them, half the time I'd have rather lost a family member.
But careful what you wish for because life likes to play games.
Literally as I was typing this I found out my aunt has cancer ><;
Moral of the story: /comfort Anna I feel ya!
